Am I Crazy? I Think I Might Be Crazy!

I think I am a little crazy. I need to catch my breath and figure out what is going on here. Would you believe me if I told you that ever since I met him I have gotten more serious about looking for a job in Los Angeles? Am I crazy? I think I might be crazy! And I am not sure where to turn for advice. Maybe I can ask my mother when I see her this weekend. But I know she will say what any normal person would say. "ARE YOU CRAZY?!?" Am I? Okay, I know the answer to that is yes. Yes, it is crazy to consider that I would more intently look for a job in Los Angeles because I met an amazing man who may or (probably more likely) may not turn out to be someone I get involved with in a serious way. I don't need anyone else to tell me that.

But I know I need to look outside of San Francisco and the Bay Area for a job after graduation. The draw of LA (besides an amazing and lovely 37 year old man) has always been that my sister is there - the idea of moving is much more palatable when living near family is a possibility. Of course, I cannot imagine leaving the Bay Area. Leaving Gigi and Robyn and my other great friends here. But let's face it...other than these two, my closest friends are already gone. Julie, Laura, Ernie. They took their husbands and their kids and they left town. And what is so bad about leaving? San Francisco isn't going anywhere. I can always come back, right?

If I would just get the job here that I really want I wouldn't even be going through this ridiculous thought experiment.