Limbo

We initiated "the conversation" last night. I am not sure why. I wasn't ready for it. I am in no position to have that conversation right now - not knowing where my life is or where it is going, not knowing what I really think about the potential for a relationship with this guy. I just want to have fun with him. And I want him to call me with some regularity. But other than that, I don't want to talk about it. Not yet.

But he wanted to talk about it. And he, like me, is not prepared for a commitment at the time. Some blah blah blah about needing space from relationships, needing to focus on other things (presumably his career) and the usual other blah blah blah stuff. But the question then becomes, he doesn't want a commitment but can we continue with things as they are? I say yes. But he may not think so. But if it isn't me per se, which is what he said, then that should be fine. But if it's that he doesn't want a commitment with me and therefore wants to move on to find someone with whom he does want one...well, that's a different story.

So, we left it as, "let's sleep on it." Though I am not sure what we were sleeping on. So, I guess he needed to sleep on something. So, we will see.

But, like dream job #1, I am not holding my breath.